"That What I Dream"
I just finished “That What I Dream”, oil on canvas, 24x30 inches. It took quite a bit out of me, quite literally. The concept of this painting was to present something between a dream and a reality. It’s still a representational piece, but the abstraction of the folds and the mere concept of a floating figure are obviously imagined and stretched. It's a dream of a child, it's my dream as a child, and it's my dream of what he will become - all in one. But mostly it's about me representing that feeling I get of a darker room, the cloud of sheets and quilts on the bed, me sinking into them, morphing with them.
It’s a reality that is slowly drifting and curving into the world of dreams. With that in mind, I intentionally left some of those raw strokes in the fabrics. They still create movement, but they are not fully seen, they are on that border of real and created. It’s all imagined by someone drifting to sleep, and the folds of the bed sheets are taking the life of their own. I felt that if I lost that, if I simply painted the folds as I saw them (and I threw my kids’ bed sheets and their quilt on the floor more than once), I would’ve lost that idea altogether. It was liberating to just play with that movement and push the curves on the canvas. That swirling composition was intentional and was pushed to the limit, way more than I could arrange the sheets on the floor to actually do. A very high horizon line was intentional, as if we are watching over.
My younger son was my model, but this is not meant to be a painting of him by any means. The face is hidden in the shadow. It is not about the figure, but about the feel of that floating comfort of the bed, the warmth of the pillow, and that sleepy world where everything around slowly spins and envelopes you. That is the reason behind the swirling curving lines in the composition, somewhat of a figure 8, to keep moving the eye around and to keep it within the canvas, moving again and again through the folds.